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You might think this too: I feel kind of shameful and sad when I think about why other people commit suicide and conversely I'm pretty happy and don't want to.  Either A) I feel like I can't show that I'm happy, because other people will want to ask me about it, and that's messed up and I should ask a psychologist; or B) I secretly think that people who get some kind of peace or benefit to killing themselves know something more about suicide than I do, which is also kind of messed up.

I'm not trying to say I think about suicide.  If you read this, don't think I do.  Suicide is so hard to talk about, it's something people have been doing throughout history yet every society wants to put its frame around it and you're not supposed to take the frame off.